“I don’t care how poor a man is; if he has family, he’s rich.”

In conclusion to my personality test that I took in Psychology, my letters are ISTP. I am an Introvert, rather than Extrovert. S is for Sensing, which means I work with known facts rather than Intuition, which is looking for possibilities and relationships. T is for Thinking. I base my decisions on impersonal analysis and logic. Rather than Feeling, where a person would base their decisions on personal values. And lastly, P is for perceiving. I prefer a flexible, spontaneous way of life. Rather than Judging, where a person would prefer a planned, decided, and orderly way of life. Descriptive words for my type preference include energetic, action-oriented, factual, practical, can be alone, is willing to work until perfect, interested in the process more than the product.

You are the performers, the actors, the artisans, and the athletes. Whatever you do, you are more concerned with the way you do it than with the product. You are willing to expend considerable amounts of time and energy working on a project or perfecting a skill. You will work until whatever it is, is as perfect as you can make it.

You are best working with the tangibles of the world. You may handle tools with facility and are proficient in any field where that ability is useful, such as mechanics. You may also consider your body a tool and tune it to be a great performer.

If your intersts are not technical, mechanical or athletic, you may use your mind to help analyze systems or markets. You may also enjoy taking a confused bunch of figures of materials and creating order out of chaos. Whatever you do, it will make “sense.”

You prefer to work alone and dislike interruptions, or working in a situation where you have to please a lot of people, unless, of course, those people are observing you from the grandstand! Then you are at your best – using your abilities to react and think quickly and adapt to the needs of the moment. This same ability may make you a good poker player, soldier, athlete, trouble shooter, or any other occupation where you can use your quick thinking and ability to live in the moment.

Please avoid any routine employment such as clerical work, and try to cultivate completing one task before taking on another.

I

1. Likes quiet and time to consider things
2. Likes to think things out before talking.
3. Won’t try something without understanding it first.
4. Prefers jobs that can be worked on quietly, inside ones own head.
5. Prefers to work alone or with few people and to set his or her own standards

S

1. Pays most attention to the solid facts of experience.
2. Likes to use eyes and ears and other senses to find out what’s happening.
3. Dislikes new problems unless there are standard ways to solve them.
4. Enjoys using skills already learned more than learning new ones.
5. Is patient with the details but impatient when the details get complicated.

T

1. Likes to decide things logically.
2. Wants to be treated with justice and fair play.
3. Sometimes ignores and hurts other people’s feelings without knowing it.
4. Gives more attention to ideas or things than to human relationships.
5. Doesn’t need harmony.

P

1. Likes to stay flexible and avoid fixed plans.
2. Deals easily with unplanned and unexpected happenings.
3. Starts too many projects and has trouble finishing them.
4. Would rather understand things than to evaluate them.
5. May decide things to slowly.
6. Wants to miss nothing.
7. Is likely to put off unpleasant jobs.

I’m suffering writer’s block. I usually don’t post my writings on blogs because I never build up the courage to publish it. I just always have this negativity that there is someone out there with a story better than mine so what does mine matter? I keep my writing to myself because I only write for myself.

And lately, I’ve been slacking. My mind is just completely blank and I speak in fragment sentences. My thoughts are scrambled and I can’t tame them on paper. I have so much to say but there aren’t enough letters to complete my words. And I lack self confidence. I would write a whole page of nothingness and it would just end up backspaced. Nothing stays permanent. Change is constant, what could possibly be permanent? When bestselling authors win all there is to win, what’s left to write? I’d like to think that what I write is my own, my language, my beauty in words. “But I am just a copy of a copy”. I want to be my own influence.

I am in need of a challenge. A new insight on sights. A new perspective on perspectives. A new view on views. I need Literary art to keep me intellectually sane.

It pains me till today that I’ve stopped playing music. It was such a huge part of my life until the end of Sophomore year in High School. I played the clarinet from 6th – 9th grade along with Bass guitar, then picked the Alto Sax for Jazz band. I loved playing the Alto Sax, it was so lively. Lately, I’ve been dying to learn how to play the piano. It’s such a beautiful instrument. I downloaded some songs from James Swearingen and it just brought me back to my Clarinet days. For Piano, Yiruma’s compositions are just purely beautiful…

I hope one day I’ll be blessed with a piano. Not with a keyboard, a real, legit piano.

So last week in Psychology class, my teacher administered to us a personality test. Not just any personality test but a real test that is often used by licensed Psychologists.  And from this test, My teacher concluded that I am an introvert. I know it shouldn’t be a big deal but it sort of was a shock to me. With my friends, I’m usually the life of the party. I’m always the one telling the jokes and being the loud and lively one. But when I’m with new people, I kind of seclude myself. I have so much to say but I don’t speak. And as much as I like being with my friends, I do like my time alone. I feel better when Im alone, actually. But all these years thinking and describing myself as an extrovert, I guess it’s about time I fully understood the meaning of being an Introvert.

I’ve made my decision. For about a year, my mom’s sister, who technically is my auntie, has been trying to put this house that I currently live in, under her name. I’ve decided to just let her have it and agree with the holographic Will she presented to a lawyer. I know that according to the legally signed and witnessed Will, my brother should get the house. But the updated and unwitnessed Will written by my grandpa (RIP) states that my auntie should get the house. I can not fight against something that my grandpa wanted. The law says my brother owns this house but since my grandpa wants his last and only surviving daughter to have this house, than so be it. I will respect my grandpa’s wishes. I just feel that it would immoral and disrespectful to go against my grandpa’s wishes. I can’t live with that.

On a lighter note, I’m stuck on Guam! My dad won’t even allow me to attend a University in Philippines. In about 6 months, I’ll be graduating high school and I’m not going anywhere. And since my house will be my auntie’s, I don’t know where I’ll be living by the end of this year! Oh well, whatever happens, happens. The least I can do is just hope for the best.

Aufwiedersehen.

I seriously hate that the tab button doesn’t work here. I started WordPress at a bad time. My internet is down and I have to use J.Paul’s tiny laptop.

Till next time, aufwiedersehen!